you're gone. you're really gone. i can imagine myself messaging you this coming sunday asking u to meet me at the void deck before church. but of course u wouldn't appear. how nice if u could just appear right before me right now. i'll give u one last hug. that hug wasn't long enough. i'm grateful for that glance u gave and the last wave before u disappeared. i needed it. i don't think i can concentrate well for mid years. too many emotions clouding my mind. i miss u so much i dunno what to say. don't worry. i'll do whatever u ask me to. i can't wait for the hols to come so that i can see you again. i remember the time when i last felt this pain and it was during my grandpa's funeral. it just brings back so many sad memories. but imagining your smiling face calms me so much. I LOVE YOU DARLING! wanna see u soon and i'll make it a reality. muacks love u lots.

snll drifted away at 7:06 AM ----------