this post is mainly bout COMPLAINS and RANTS. so if you aren't feeling that good yourself. please don't read it. lest it makes you feel worse.OK. so chemistry paper was crap. Crrraaaaappppp. ugh. what a disgusting paper that was. how can anyone think that kinda paper up?? its such a stupid demoralising paper. there were some words in there that i didn't even understand!! and i thought that was only like supposed to happen in gp papers. and just when u thought it couldn't get any worse. it BECAME worse. CRAMPS. irritating painful unbearably frustrating cramps when you're doing and impossibly difficult frustrating paper. i felt like pulling my hair out!!. and the fan was blowing down and my fringe was irritating me. I COULD SCREAM!!! ugh. but that's over and done with and i'm not gonna think bout it anymore. YUCK. Sorry : feeling sorrow, repent, penitence, regret, mournful, sad. sorry means truly repenting and not doing it again. sorry doesn't mean getting you off the hook this time so you can do it again another time. what's the point of saying sorry when you'll just do the same thing all over again? if that's the case. don't apologise. it just makes things worse than what it already is. i am ballooning up. no time to exercise because of studies. in the one week break after my prelims i am going into this swimming regime. i shall swim everyday, or every other day at least. UGH. studying just never ends does it. even when you think you've covered it all, there is always that little detail lurking somewhere, trying to evade your eyes so you wouldn't memorise it. its not like i'm stubborn or headstrong or anything. ok maybe i am. but i believe in once bitten twice shy. don't YOU?! how much more can you take? how long more can you last? how much are you going to give? there's nothing much left of you to give. so stop giving in and just give up. its not my mentality or my mindset. its a fact. so please. just stop torturing yourself before something really bad happens. PLEASE.someday somehow, gonna make it right. but not right now. keep breathing, believe it. hold on to me. never let me go.
snll drifted away at 5:17 AM
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