disclaimer: i'm upset. so if u feel that u are upset enough or for some reason will be affected by this post. DON'T READ IT.

:( i have to get it out. i have to get it over and done with. yes. i know its right. but right doesn't necessarily mean its nice, fine and dandy. but its right. so i guess that's just the way it is. someday i'll be thanking god for that. but not today. today was sulk and complain day. today was retail therapy day. bought another top. dorothy p erkins $29. thank god for the girls and their company. feeling UGH. but won't say much here. it wouldn't really matter anyway. it didn't help that my nail broke way to deep into the flesh and i kinda just blistered my blister all over again. that makes me wanna laugh. is there even such a thing as blistered my blister? oh whatever. anyway celest gave me today to get over it and its 11:57. 3 mins till the end of today. and i can more or less say i'm over it. i'm s-o-y. so i've beaten the record celest set for me. and once again i'd like to clarify: i HATE change. unless its for the better. then again, wth am i talking bout?! who likes change for the worse?! some things will never be the same again. that's all i can say. i prob didn't sense the change but it did happen anyway. suddenly i miss mickey. sigh. the only male i can trust who isn't related to me. maybe i'll dream bout him tonight chewing on carrots and spinach. its weird. but its distracting. and distraction is what i need now. so girls, if u have absolutely nothing to do, pls do remember me and ask me out. if i'm not working, i'll definitely go out with you guys. and oh, i'll be working at an icecream parlour called venezia soon. so come visit me if you can!! i'll keep you girls updated on which branch i'll be posted to. hopefully it ain't heartland mall. its too heartland for me. hyok.

so that's that. resigned.

snll drifted away at 7:52 AM ----------