i feel liberated. i feel relaxed. and there's a certain part of me that feels relieved. one month plus and counting since i've last did something. and yet. there's no longing for me to do it. why? have i finally felt what i predicted i would. or rather, what i wanted to feel over time. or did i just forget? forget what it felt like. or maybe, i just yearned to have what i couldn't. or once had, but wasn't meant to be. its just bad. cos i'm confused and factors that shouldn't be affecting my future is affecting my future. i wish there was something that i could do to channel all my confusion somewhere. do you get me? i'm relaxed, relieved and liberated. and yet, i'm frustrated and scared bout what might happen or what might not happen. watching view from the top now. gwenyth paltrow (how do you spell her name?) is a small country town girl bent on making her dreams come true. and though she met come glitches along the way, she eventually made it. though some really really hard sacrifices had to be made, she made them and got to the top. sigh. if only i could be like her. beautiful, smart, hardworking and most of all, determined and kind. why do air stewardesses have to be so tall? i don't think i even meet the height requirements. ok height aside. i definitely don't meet the 'looks' requirements. so i can forget bout the jet set life!! HAHA. not like i particularly like flying too. i can't walk straight on an airplane. imagine me walking in high heels on an airplane. it'll look like a sunbear walking on a thin rope will juggling 10 ping pong balls. Lying in my bed, I hear the clock ticks, and think of you Caught up in circles, confusion is nothing new Flash back, warm night, almost left behind Suitcase of memories... Time after Sometime you pictured me, I'm walking too far ahead You're callin' to me, I can't hear what you've said You said, "Go slow, I fall behind" The second hand unwinds... If you're lost, you can look and you will find me, Time after time If you fall I will catch you, I'll be waiting, Time after time I turn, my picture fades, and darkness has turned to grey Watching through windows, you're wondering if I'm okay Secrets, stolen, from deep inside, The drum beats out of time... If you're lost, you can look and you will find me, Time after time If you fall I will catch you, I'll be waiting, Time after time
If you're lost, you can look and you will find me, Time after time If you fall I will catch you, I will be waiting, Time after time
Time after time...
i love beautiful blondes.
snll drifted away at 8:29 AM
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