Love is nothing when life gets in the way. that's why long distance relationships seldom work. i'm not saying they don't ever, but they seldom do. its like you can't love a person if you can't see that person. relationships don't even work when you get to SEE that person.
like hazelina says:" absence makes the heart grow fonder, too much absence makes the fond heart wander." that is so true. it can go from happy butterflies fluttering in your stomach to sick worm slugs slithering around in just one split second.
yi lin in the leap years analysed that the most common word in love letters is not 'love' but 'miss'. so i feel like i'm finally looking at 'love' from a different angle. because i'm able to say certain things without feeling like i have a letter 'n' shoved into my mouth. when do you know you're ready for a relationship? when your parents start dropping hints to you bout which guy has great potential and which guy doesn't.
i used to wonder when will i ever know? í've asked friends, and they said it just kinda happened. not very helpful then, but now, i know what they mean. so no, i'm not searching, i'm not looking. i'm just waiting for it to 'kinda-happen'. you think you know yourself, but when you really consider things and look into things that you feel may be unreal, you start to realise things about yourself that you didn't know, and unknowingly, you'll abandon that intellectual exterior that you keep yourself protected in and finally use your wisdom to judge for once. so abandon.
to reinforce how happy i am that hazelina and hiromi are still able to stay next semester. (because i feel that the post wasn't adequate)i really am glad. not ecstatic lunatic kinda happy. but reassuring, long lasting kinda happy. went for supper with hiromi, geraldine (the blue team), aikleong, denis (the red team, hazelina and myself (the pink team *unfortunately*) on thurs night and we were just sitting at the very artistic block structures at the main foyer of PGP, just looking up into the stars and talking about everything and anything. laughing, getting teased. so this is what hall life is about. just the peace you're feeling (my peace came from knowing that i didn't have to wake up early the next day because my practical was at 2 and it was an excursion to the zoo! a place which i haven't been to in ages!)and the comfort you're feeling in the company of friends where you can be truly truly who you are.
and guess what, i still believe this:
say what you want and do what you feel, because those who mind, don't matter, and those who matter, don't mind.

if i had a penny for each of my thoughts, i'd be rich.

snll drifted away at 8:53 AM ----------