Just when you need it to
As I pace back and forth all this time
'Cause
I honestly believed in you
Holdin' on,
The days drag on
Stupid girl
I should've known, I should've known
That I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.
Maybe I was naïve,
Got lost in your eyes
I never really had a chance.
My mistake I didnt know to be in love
you had to fight to have the upper hand.
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings;
Now I know
And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness,
Begging for me
Just like I always wanted,
But I'm so sorry
Cause Im not your princess
This aint a fairytale
Im gonna find someone, Some day
Who might actually treat me well.
This is a big world,
That was a small town
There in my rearview mirror,
Disappearing now.
And it's too late for you and your White Horse,
Now its too late for you and your White Horse
To catch me now.
once again. i'm thinking about this song. and finally. i mean it. you know what? i give up. in a really good way. i give up trying to figure out what's going on. trying to figure out why i feel the way i feel. trying to figure out you. i'm just letting it all go, and letting it all be. not wasting my emotions on someone who is truly not worth it.
i'm not gonna be sad or upset or emo any longer because of you because you're just not worth my time. what's worth my time are my friends who have stood by me every single step of the way, every single tear that i've shed. more importantly, what's worth every moment of my being is God that's been shielding and comforting me from claws like yours that are only waiting to devour.
i remember every comment you made, every disgusted look in your eyes, every notion that made me think that i wasn't good enough. just because you're popular, you're good-looking and you're a people person. i don't want to be a people person and i can't just fake a smile during a quarrel when one of your friends go by. they think i'm a b*tch because of you, but i don't care because they don't matter to me.
i really don't know what you're trying to do now.why you're acting like you care, smsing me and stuffs. its too late for all that now. when we were together, u didn't even bother to ask if i'm ok. and now? what's the point? all i know is your attempts to 'rein' me in (like a dear friend suggests) are in vain. because i am not entertaining your attempts to boost your ego by knowing someone's hurting and pining for you. i am not the ex-girlfriend who will wait for you and not get over you. because i will. so you can forget about hoping that i'll reciprocate any attempts of yours any longer.
i know i said i wanted to be friends. but that was before your childish antics that was so humiliating and disappointing. as a human being, truly embarrassing.
so no more tears over you. i'm done.
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