i'm sentimental, so i walk in the rain.
i've got some habits, even i can't explain.
could start for the corner, turn up in spain.
why try to change me now?
i sit and daydream, i've got daydreams galore.
cigarette ashes, there they go on the floor.
i'll go away weekends, leave my keys at the door.
why try to change me now?
why can't i be more conventional?
people talk, people stare, so i try.
but that's not for me, cause i can't see.
my kinda crazy world go passing me by.
so let people wonder, let them laugh, let them frown.
you know i'll love you till the moon's upside down.
don't you remember, i was always your clown.
why try to change me now?
i know i am supposed to be studying. but i really can't concentrate unless i get it out of my system. i've had a pretty fine week. no particular up or down. but its just some that one day when you feel like you feel nothing. i don't know. it just seems. nothing. thought abit about my future tdy, since i can't do honours. not here at least. considered my options, going overseas (aussie, where else?), or start working, be a teacher? nah. i really don't know. i am inclined towards spending some time overseas, like some wiseguy prob said, to 'zao zi ji'. i really need to find myself i guess. been listening to this wonderful song resung by fiona apple. its lovely. quaint (which actually means weird, but has a positive connotation). i wish i could be like her. go away weekends, leave my keys at my door. travel the world alone, meet new people, gain new experiences. stuck is what i feel. stuck studying, stuck financially, stuck in this rigid small little box that i seemed to have got trapped in over the years. so where's my chance? where's the spoon that i could use maybe to dig my way out?
i just wanna disappear for awhile. just a little while.
snll drifted away at 9:23 AM
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