just sent my friend off to europe. he's gonna be there for 6 mths, experiencing what life is in the bigger world out there. maybe its the grass-is-always-greener-on=the-other-side syndrome. or maybe i was freakishly influenced by the cheesy but alright movie Monte Carlo. maybe its something deeper. these are the people that make things happen, you know. i've always wanted to go on exchange, but it just doesn't happen. dont talk about not having a good enough grade, i guess i just was too lazy to go through with it. i was thinking, enviously actually, how nice it would be if i could be like him. travel the world, see what's really out there. and in the process, change, be wiser, stronger.

so i came home, showered and was waiting for my hair to dry. wanted to mope around during this time, maybe just fall asleep. but i just couldn't. nobody's fault. no particular feeling. i just needed to do something. something like dye my infamous salmon-pink dress. dye it arabian blue (because that's the dye i bought). i intended to do this over the weekend, or maybe next weekend or next next weekend. and maybe that's exactly the problem with me. so NO. its something i have to do now, and now it shall be done.

i finished about an hour later. now. 1:18am. and yes, i feel a great sense of achievement. and even before i fall asleep, i told myself. i must blog about this. because this blog is like an electronic diary, in more ways than one, since diaries are personal, and i figured i am THE only one reading this blog. LOL. so here i am. blogging about it now. feeling kinda sleepy.

so yes. i dyed my salmon-pink dress with an arabian blue dye at 12:18am and it turned out to be a violet colour. its small and insignificant. but at least its a time of change. baby steps. good night world.