After reading it over and over again, i finally came to an understanding as to what the quote i asked you guys about meant. just read some reviews on it and actually, its quite a controversial book. but i'm figuring it out as i go on.



So the context is:


God the Father takes the form of an African American woman who calls herself Elouisa and Papa, Jesus Christ is a Middle-Eastern carpenter, and the Holy Spirit physically manifests itself as an Asian woman named Sarayu.

in the first part of Mack's conversation with Papa, he was growing more and more confused as he wanted to believe what He was saying, but just found it too difficult considering the situations he's been through. he doesn't have a father figure to look up to because his dad was an abuser and alcoholic. and his youngest daughter, Missy was brutally murdered by a serial killer. body never found, killer never caught.

so the quote is:

"most birds were created to fly. being grounded for them is a limitation within their ability to fly, not the other way around.... you on the other hand, were created to be loved. so for you to live as if you were unloved is a limitation, not the other way around."

as i thought about it, i realised that the "not the other way around" is a way of saying that when a bird is not flying, it's not the creation of birds to fly that is the limitation, it is the fact that they are grounded that is the limitation.

similarly, when we are living our lives without purpose feeling we are not loved, it is not that we were created to be loved by God that is the limitation, it is the fact that we are living as though we aren't loved by God that is the limitation.

we are not limited by the love of God because it is limitless.

ok. so i went to see the dentist yesterday. or rather, oral surgeon. at oralmaxillofacial. the dentist was quite funny and nice actually, though i think they could use one better receptionist rather than 3 gabra-ing ones, all of whom doesn't seem like they know what they're doing.
 
anyways, the doctor noticed on the 2-d xray that my bottom 2 wisdom teeth was very very near to the nerve and wanted to be sure what he was dealing with, so he decided to take a 3-d xray. in my heart i was praying that maybe i dont need to take out my wisdom teeth! but...alas...
 
after taking the 3d xray, he saw that.... i have a very unique set of teeth. not only that my 2 bottom wisdom teeth are growing completely horizontally, the right bottom one has 3 ROOTS instead of 2 roots, and the left bottom one has a hooked root, which is touching the nerve. so he might have to leave the hooked root behind even though he's extracting the tooth. he looked and me and was like...your teeth is weirr...special! very rare and special. and i was thinking...so can dont take out? he was like...must take out. CHAM LA.
 
so anyways, he says my teeth are very big, as concurred by apparently all dentists that i've been to. and he recommends that i do braces! which my dad will be very happy to know. my dad thinks my teeth is hideous. i kinda think its cute, and its me. would sarah without ba-geh be sarah? THAT is the quesion. so he said i should consult a orthodontist first, to see if there is a need to pluck out teeth in order to put the braces in, and if there is, he could extract them altogether along with the 4 wisdom teeth. sooo....hmm... hafta see how.
 
gotta see which week i can take 1-week MC!!!
 
i'm scared :( the only good thing i guess is i cannot eat what i want, and so in doing (or not doing), i can lose some weight. coupled with braces and uncomfort if i intend to do them, should be able to lose even more weight. so.... AH. i must pray about it.
 

snll drifted away at 6:45 PM ----------